I have two perfectly good blogs in my mind. Both are talking about my faith. I've contemplated not posting them, or posting them with a warning. Why would I do that?Lambie was talking to one of her friends at school the other day about something she loved about church. Her friend, a genuinely sweet girl, A, said, "Blah blah blah, church church church, blah blah blah." Lambie said she was afraid to talk about church anymore to her friends. Six years old and afraid to talk about something dear to her. So sad! We talked at length about why her friend might feel this way, and what to do about it, and how she should not be ashamed to share joy!
Yet, this is why I hold my tongue. If I knew that as I talk about something as dear to me as my family, and someone responded "Blah blah blah, kids kids kids, blah blah blah," I would be heartbroken. There is a sacredness I feel toward my children and husband. There is a sacredness I feel toward my faith and my God. I have not posted because I'm afraid of the sacredness being declared "foolish", "brainwashed", "silly". I am a thinking person. I am a feeling person. I am an educated person. And I believe in God. Firmly. Unapologetically.
What I believe, what I experience, in my faith, is as real to me as my child's breath on my face, and as precious. I will not go on, censored. If you read my stories, you will read of my testimony. I know who I am, and I am sharing what is dear to me, with you, if you will take me as I am.
I have come to terms with this also, and am so glad to hear that you have to. You have a lot to offer and should do so freely. I believe it is my way of sharing what I care about and have learned to do so with little hesitation. What a terrific example of taking advantage of a teaching moment with your sweet daughter. Follow your heart; you can't go wrong.
ReplyDeleteExactly. I just wish that others would listen to us, especially when they expect us to listen to them. So many times I would have people telling me all about their church and what they were doing, but as soon as I brought up my church and what I was doing they shut me down. It used to be that I would talk to anyone and everyone about the church and my beliefs, but it got to the point that it was too difficult to try to not "offend" anyone. It makes me sad. I need to become more courageous.
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