Just Give Me the Whole Pie

A few years ago, a prominent person in my life sent an email that I'll never forget. It stated how this person had served a mission, served in the military, and raised children, and wanted to know when they would get service in return. I was quick to point out that those were services they had given, and *should* expect nothing in return. It's true.

Today at church, SW spoke on humility. It was an awesome talk. And he used my delightful husband as an example of a humble person. (And my heart bubbled with healthy pride.) One quote I keep repeating in my head, so I remember it is: "Humility is not when we think less OF ourselves. Humility is when we think less ABOUT ourselves."

Then in Relief Society (ladies group), the lesson was on service. It was a great lesson. I realized that my bitterness blog the other day was just awful. I was feeling expectant and entitled. While I know no one read it in its entirety, I assure you, it was regarding me having the same "what about me?" attitude from the email that I so quickly chastised.

Service is charity, service is love. Service is not a bank of due diligence.

My first slice of humble pie was after I wrote out the blog and realized I needed to put my unkind feelings behind me. So I deleted. My second slice was realizing I genuinely need to forget myself in service. Not just talk about it, or talk about what I learned from not having it, I need to do it! I have always felt that a better world comes from taking care of your self, taking care of your companion, taking care of your family, taking care of your community, and so forth. So often I keep my world too small, and forget to move outside of my family.

So if you could all forgive me, I will do better at thinking less about myself, and more about others. It is where love is.