We are often counseled to not look back, to look forward, focusing on what is ahead, rather than all that occurred in our past. However, I have learned that occasionally it is a good thing to glace back, to see how far you've come.
One year ago, I was very pregnant with Peach. I experienced an injury that is not too common, but can happen in pregnancy. In fact, my sister, HC, and my mom both had this with their last children. I can't help but wonder if the intense pain encouraged them, as well as me, to declare the finality of our child bearing years.
I endured a split pelvis. The front, the pubic bone area, separated. It went from having stability to weakness. Imagine hula hooping with a hoop that was not connected in its necessary circle. Imagine your hips going from an O to a C. With every step, the back feels like it needs joints or hinges, but does not have them. The sides are weaker and feel like they will snap off. Every step you take lacks stability and strength. You can't shift your weight from one foot to another. You are completely unable to walk on uneven ground, and fight to go up and down stairs. The pain with every movement is almost unbearable.
Yet here I am, one year later. I hardly think about it anymore. I can walk. I can run!
My chilling pain has already become a mere memory, and I am thankful. I am thankful that I don't remember quite how difficult it was. I am thankful I made it through that time that seemed unending. I am thankful at how far I've come physically. I am thankful that I am able to do so much. I am thankful that I have become more than healed, I have become strong.
What a great year it's been! What will the next year bring with my strength and fortitude? Perhaps it'll be worth a glance back.
When looking back brings gratitude, then it's a good thing. It sends you looking forward again with more hope and more "can-do" attitude. I'm so glad you are doing better and you are doing great at this exercise thing. Awesome example.
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